taking it back...

had to cancel on germaine's birthday dinner today...
becuase i was sick, feeling like crap, and looking like shit...
sick...
sicccck...
ahhhhhhhh phooooooooottttttwwwweeeeeee....
sick...

germ/dawn: why are you like that!!! you're driving all of your friends away...

its tiring and energy consuming staying mad at anyone...
when the arguments over...
when the heat's gone...
what are we fighting for...

its been too long..
and i've already forgotten what we're fighting for...
i've said many things...
so have you...
if i had to take back every single word...
i would...
every single one of them...

but i also know that...
if it didn't happen now...
it would have later...
someday, somehow...

i don't want to look back years from now...
all bitter and still angry...
but still asking myself, was that all necesarry...
and if only i did...

i'm tired...
i'm exhausted...
i'm done...
i'm really done...

this has already happened to me...
and i do not want this to ever happen again...
i've missed my chance at making things right the last time...
and now i'm taking it...

i'm sorry...