so everytime you see me all quiet in a corner...

sometime when i bored...
to keep me sane...
i think of all the possible bad things that can happen to people i love and me...
that way...
if it does happen i would be prepared...
and my heart would know how to break...

i do not fear death...
not because i wish for it...
but because my own eyes have witnessed it...
i fear death because i don't think i'll ever be ready to leave the people i love behind...
i fear death because i don't want to be forgotten...
what kind of legacy will i leave behind...
what kind void my death would bring...
what kind of hope my death could give...
what kind of sorrow my death will grieve...

so everytime you see me all quiet in a corner...
my heart is silentlybreaking ...
all over agian...
not because i love this feeling of helplessness...
but because it teaches me how to live, love and learn...
as i cradle the fragile life with my cold bare hands...

to those who have lost, loved and learned...
i too have lost...
but i will learn to love...