christmas miracles can happen...

just when i was about to think that this christmas has got to be the most depressing one ever...
i am reminded that the christmas spirit i was so desperately trying to find...
was right under my nose and infront of my very eyes...
it was all along right here in my house...

just last month when my mom threw away the christmas tree...
and told everyone we won't be having a christmas tree this year...
i was about to throw a major pre- christmas hissy fit...
when my dad drove al around singapore trying to find another just in time for christmas...

how i realize that this is the first time i've spent christmas week in singapore in a very long time...
my grandmom is up and well, planning for the annual christmas dinner...
and that everyone was suprisingly home for christmas...
because of the sordid non stop monsoon rain, my sis can finaly wear her wellis i bought her for christmas last year...

spent the whole of last 2 weeks helping out as a bellringer for salvation army...
between standing under the hot sun and getting soaking from the rain...
i forgot what it felt like to have fun meeting new people and just talk...
i guess every once in a while we need strangers to remind us how lucky our lives are...

christmas kettling has to be the highlight of my whole christmas week...
standing in the middle of busy orchard road ringing the bell is not the hardest thing...
being constantly ignored is...
people passing by, they hear you, but they choose to ignore...

i thought long and hard...
and all i want for christmas is, for singapore to stop ignoring...
stop ignoring people who are rarely heard or seen...
just because it makes our live easier if we do not acknowledge them...

one of my kettling partner was a 70 yo lady...
she told me how she and her husband were suppose to be on a cruise to celebrate their 50th wedding anniversary...
not any cruise but THE QE2...
when she read the newspaper on how some children in singapore have never celebrated christmas because they were to sick or poor to...
she cancelled the whole cruise, took her refund and started to organize dozens of children's christmas parties leading up to christmas...
where she and her husband would go around singapore distributing presents to these children on christmas morning...

amazing...
i wish i had the drive of a 70 year old woman...
then maybe, my puiny kettling efforts would actually count...
christmas is all about meeting these angels in disguise...







i hate myself for feeling so bloody depress this christmas...







this christmas might actully be turning out to be one of the best...
who knows...
it's christmas week...
christmas miracles can happen...