Monday, August 06, 2007

funk...

I have been in a funk recently…
A funk that jane austen would have been proud of…
But back in the days of jane austen and oscar wilde…
I would have been the protagonist of any sad sappy novel…

I feel like my life is headed in a non specific direction…
Don’t get me wrong, my life is moving smoothly…
But the main question is: moving smoothly to where?
And when I actually do get there, will I even know where destination hong yu ran is?

My life right now is like this entry…
So pointless and meaningless you wonder why you’re even reading it…
i feel like everyone else is moving past me with at least the faintest direction…
while I’m left behind contemplating where my wind blows…

like I said…
a funk…
a funk is the post modern existentialist take of being a little small dot on a larger than life picture…
a funk is another excuse for not knowing whether you feel content, shitty, fulfilled or just plain ol’ funking…

maybe I’m feeling all of it at the same time hence the funk…
don’t they prescribe a pill for such things?


if being single is a travesty...
and being attached and in a relationship is a higher and natural form of human progression....
shouldn't CHOOSING to be single and skipping the attachment part a first step of human evolution?
and we all know human evoltuion trumps natural progression...

under all my resentment and distainment for all who are blissfully attached...
i truly from the botton of my heart wish that you would just take out a pistol and blow each others brain off...
so help me god if i have to hear another person talk about spending time with their other someone...
i'll blow mine off...




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