whoever said birthdays had to be happy...

cuz you had a bad day...
you've taken one down...
you sing a sad song and you go for ride...

keeps on replaying in my head over and over again...
just can't wait for today to end...
thats the thing about birthdays...
or maybe that my thing with birthdays...
last year i got depressed the day before my birthday...
i hated that a day validated your life and be judged for what you've done...
i was afraid that no one would bother...
had an amazing birthday last year...

welll this year...
i've decided to be less cynical about growing another year older...
i've decided to be happy for a change...
lets just say...
never expect anything from anyone...
no expectations... no let-downs...
i'm not a hallmark birthday card person...
i don't need a present or a party...
i only need the company of friends...

i couldn't help but expect a little...
and yeap...
no expectation, no let downs...

germaine, sherrie, paris...
thanks for being friends...
more than words that can say...
my cycnicsm kicked in a little to early...