red, white and food...

USA: Happy 40th Birthday Singapore.
Singapore: Who told you i was 40?!? i'm 30!! you old bitch...

De ja vu...
thats what today's been like...
it feels like i have been through this day over and over...
the cheesy national day parade...
the big cook out bbq...
the lack of enthusiasm...
and toasting to a brighter future with cheap wine in plastic cups...

had our annual...
national-i-am-trying-to-give-a-damn-day...
or...
national-lets-waste-the-tax-payers-day...
or...
national-lets-celebrate-by-gorging-ourselves-to-death-day...

...national (insert) day bbq cookout...

its really about my mom actually...
its a day when she invites ppl from ard the neighbourhood to celebrate...

celebrate the anniversary of her expensive-and-useless WMF stainless steel, gas activated, heat control, enviromental friendly, bbq pit/cooker...

we got the bbq pit years ago thinking we actually do need one...
and this was the only time of the year my mother had a reason to actually use it...
and if you're thinking about my mom in an apron cookin...
its more like my maid... pushin the ton of steel out and actually figured out how to operated the time bomb waiting to blow...
while my mom sits from afar admiring how shiny the steel still is...

my sis was playing with the other kids with irritating accents...
my brother was scaring away our new expats neighbours from the US telling them how flawed the us political system is and how it should have been run...
my dad talking balls about his koi (which he doesn't notices until someone reminds him) pond...
my mom...still admiring from afar...
me...i was standing far way from the time bomb waiting to blow...
thinking of a i-told-you-so-it-was-going-to-blow-lecture...
when it does actually blow...of course

huray hoorah...
we survived another year of cookout 2005...
hmmm wonder what will next year be like....

wait...

i can see clearly now...