bite me....

sometimes being a drama mama can be so tiring! it's been 6 mths and this month is my last treatment, no more pills, doctors! really happy bout it...but the treatment has made me so weak and vulnerable. i feel like a emotional wreckage, crashed out and burned up. "it" has taken a toll on me... trying to pluck up and act as if nothings wrong! well guess what?!? there is....i'm flawed! its so tiring being normal... my mask is cracking! and soon people well see the toll it has taken on me...not as perfect as people want it to be. sometimes i really want to scream and shout and yell my heart out! but guess what i'm too tired.(the treatment). i cry at night...suprise suprise...now tears flow so naturally. and i'm sick of crying at night! maybe its too *tak glam* to cry in the daylight though. yea...will consider!

enough about "it".

just finished rehearsing and feel that nothing has been improved...where's kwokie...we really need u!
i think i'm starting to really like the superficial, spot-light grabing and ostenciously loud drama juniors....they're fun actually....kids with a heart....somewhere where out there. am thinking bout my best buds...wondering whether thery're still thinkin' of me.... i miss them like i've never missed them before...they're my emotion rock that i cling on...they're my safe deposit box for me scandalous and mind-boggling sercets. love em' sometimes...u love your friends so much that you tend to overlook their flaws as well as to be influenced by them like some bimbotic teenager without a mind of its own. *muack* ya'all......

1.15pm .
rushed to drama, hysterical at being 15 minutes late, to find mrs k nowhere to be seen. though actually good to further plan my defence. weird thing is, no one was really there! finally!!! early for once!!! biatch!!! take that....drama was like a bad mix of techo music and smooth rnb with really bad lyrics...it was crap. to make matters worse stupid desdi injured his bloody wrist and who the hell is gonna left the cow up?(she's actually a petite gal but she feels like a cow though) anyway, had to battle with tacky costume as well as marian...gawd....crazy psycotic bitch that looks like a cross between a filipino maid and a thai prostitute(disclaimer: not that filipino maids or thai prostitute are negative characters) and she gives J.LO's ass a run for its money...

planing on making over puss and elaine tml....hope everything goes welll...it has to...i'm fashion high priest...but then again...i suffer from momentarary fashion relapse....dun blame me girls if u turn ou to look like julia roberts in pretty woman....the prostitute version..since i'm gonna catch it again later for the hundred time....

to dhaniah...hope all goes well for the singapore idol audition...and u have to say that i was a a emotion support to you yada yada yada and the whole bullshit ok!!!!