life's a crapper and we are just mere stains...

the only relationship i need help is the one with myself...
because people come and go...
and at the end of the day, you will always have you...
i don't like what i see in the mirror for quite some time now...

why can't we all just stay the same...
listen to the same music, watch the same tv programs, have the same fun under the sun?
there's always going to be new break through artist, shows getting canned, and the hole in the ozone layer getting bigger...
i think even the world knows that life's a crapper...

i have spent 22 years trying to define who i am...
to my family, to my friends, and to the people i've yet to meet...
never once to myself...
i'm scared that if i knew who i was, i might not like me...

i wish someone, anyone, could just call me...
and tell me, everything's going to be alright...
no one says that anymore, nothings certain, because no one is sure that everything's going to be alright...
i don't need assurance, i just need a little hope...

there are things i wish i could've taken back...
but now that it's out there making it's rounds...
i'm glad...
because we don't have to pretend like we know each other anymore...

we are all strangers...
bumping into each other on this earth...
sometimes you get lucky and you get away with just a bruise...
and if you hit the jackpot, you'll leave with a scar...

i feel like as i close this chapter of my life...
i can't shake this feeling that a part of me has died...
the people that will be in the next few chapters will never get to see the full me...
that's what i hate about you...

like i said...
at the end of the day...
i don't want my book to end with... the end....
i want it to end knowing that there'll always be a sequel waiting round the corner....

if you were a chapter of my life...
my editors would rip it out...
there's nothing more depressing than being at a faux low...
people hate reading stuff like that...

maybe i'll call you in the future...
when the book hits the shelve...
and we'll know for sure...
life's not a crapper afterall...