big huge rock...

i have finally emerged from a huge rock...
so huge it has denied me the time and energy to even blog...
the rock with all its weight has rendered me useless to even formulate thoughts onto this cesspit we call the world wide web...
this huge rock comes in a little form of OCS...

yes, there's a computer with internet access paid by lawful tax payers 2 steps away from my bed...
as much as i like to waste tax payers money to surf trashy websites...
just recounting the daily insane activities of an average everyday sane psycho officer cadet makes me wanna gnarl out all these little keyboard keys and shove them up my arse...
ocs is a bitch and a half...

i think i've forgotten why i even wanted to come into this hell hole in the first place?
to make my parents proud?
dude, my life still revolves around my sub credit cards y'all...
i don't think me getting that shiny sword's gonna get me that new bag...

apparently the army is cracking down on soldiers who blog about sensitive restricted information on their blogs...
so let me encrypt this message so i won't be fucked...
OCSISAMUTHAFUCKINGPAININMYARSE...
NSISAMUTHAFUCKINGWASTEOFMYGOODFORNOTHINGLIFE!

i don't know which is worst...
waking up in the middle of the night during our 10 days tekong field camp only to find out that it was only less than 24 hours into the whole shindig...
or waking up in the middle of the forest with my entire uniform, boots and underwear soaking with mud only to find out that it was 24 hours before reaching civilization...

there are days i wake up knowing that there's brighter things ahead for me...
then there are days i wake up wishing i would be in a horrific accident bad enough for me to be put out of course and not be physically handicapped for life...
but most of the time...
it's a what the fuck am i doing here syndrome...

this is so not what i signed up for y'all...