the big one...

yeap....
its the big one...
where 2 bugger heads refuse to shut the fuck up and bug off...
khai and i hnd our official first fight...

when did fights become so painful...
last i checked it was always some sort of fun...
it was a bitch and run...

sometimes you really wonder...
if both are screaming at each other...
who's listening...

we spend a large amount of our lives dwelled up inside...
seeking acceptance, and seeking attention...
is this the reason why people fight...
because we want to be accept and be heard?
when have fighting lost its fiest?

about halfway through the fight i wanted to call it a day...
but khai wanted to keep at it...
i remeber using to love this sort of pain...
why was i backing off?
was it because i knew i lost it back there?
or was it because i knew she lost it back there?
or maybe i wanted our first fight to be special...
not some fight over an issus that has already been resolved...

the big one...
and i'm talking about my mouth...
yeap..
apparently if you haven't noticed i have a really big one...
and it'll always get me into trouble...
it was my mouth that got me into trouble this time...

i didn't know whether khai was getting where i was coming from...
or whether khai knew where i was coming from that why she kept at it...
either way we both wern't making much of a sense..
and the more we argued..
the more personal it got...
it got to a point where i literally went...
thats enough, i'll just forget it, so drop it...
9 small words...
a huge step back...

whatever it was...
guess what the fight was over just like that...
lets just leave it that way...