you never know...

hey ya'lll, its been so and i mean so long, had to go through this whole painfull process and denial that writing on the blog was a blast from the past! so yea...now i'm back in the superficial-non carb-low fat-world of blogging!!!! ANDIMPROUDOFIT....

have you ever had an inspiration from someone before, and i'm not talking "what-to-wear, what-color-my-nail-should-be" inpiration. i'm talking stop-for-that-very-second inpiration, everything slows down until it fully stops and its just you in an empty room, and you just think... and you just start getting vibes and ideas poping out of your head, you're momentarily literally high on life. now thats what inspiration is all about.

it got me started, on a series of highs and lows of my so called life, 18 is a very very crucial year...you're turing into a legal adult in the court of law as well as you can have free wild mind blowing crazy sex (which you couldn"t 2 years back because you were all fuzzy about the law) i take pride in everything i do nontheless, i also enjoy waking up each day wondering who i'll end up with, or who i might bump into....the not knowing is actually the highs of my life...sad but awfully true...

the lows....well its that i'm trying really hard to be the person i want to be and i'm trying to accomplish too many things when i'm only still 18... face it....i'm not the person anyone would like to be....

are we all people waking up each and everyday not knowing of the future? or maybe we wake up because we want to know what not knowing of the future feels like?
i'd like to think that we wake up because we know that we don't know of the future but deep inside we want not to know of the future... geddit?

to my inspiration,
who has thaught be that not knowing, and the benifit for reason of doubt, is always good not to know.
sherrie